A one-live cat’s life

I learned that first impression lasts.  When getting introduced the first time wherever to whoever or whenever, make sure to be ready and present yourself neat, and be impressive. 

We judge a lot and time comes that we are very scared when we think people will judge us.  There is this one friend who was so perfectionist and or i say conventional and criticize what the reality or what he thinks immoral some actions are, and right now i guess he is in what he thinks socially unaccepted state, my intuition tells me that he is scared to be judged by people and he avoids seeing his friends

nice format resume will attract an employer when they are doing shortlisting, specially when they receive bulk emails, they do not actually read the contents.  that takes place when it has been shortlisted. remember that the resume sells you. So you have to make it nice, brief and content-quality.

It is useful to look smart and talk smart even if you are not much very familiar of a subject.  Just make sure not to get caught.  Impression will look like that you know the subject even if you are as if-you know it you can deceive someone.  I am not saying that it is nice to deceive, but sometimes at work, you need to look you are skilled, then after do the research in case they follow-up.

A proper hand shake is a FIRM grip (not too firm that as if your angry) but a good sincere hand shake.  i find bland when people do not know how to shake hands, some shake hands as if they are scared to let someone hold their hands.

A man can both successful in carrer and lovelife, it is difficult for a woman to be successful in both like a man. 

Success is not always happiness but happiness is success; happiness is passion, passion brings you to success

True friends are not just there to tell you what you want to hear but are also there to tell what you need to hear

True friends are sincere to what they promise

Some think it is always easier to blame somebody/something else for your fault, it also takes away the guilt

Some people would cover their insecurities by material wealth, some would make an lie excuse to divert insecurities and pressure

If I was a cat, I realized that the saying "If the cat is away, the mouse will play" is same as true for humans as well

I rather be an old maid rather than to be with a man who i do not see growing old with

never be loyal to your company because they will never be loyal to you

Scars never heal, you get use to it

After break ups we avoid streets and locations at a certain time for they are like emotional land mines.  I felt it was true at first, but i did not avoid the land mine, I conquered got over it and got used to it.  And yes i can without crying

Trust no one but yourself

Weeks of just watching MTV since there are no other English channel i felt that these songs are my songs :

Smile by Lily Allen
when you first left me
I was wanting more
but you were f**king that girl next door
what did you do that for

when you first left me
I didnt know what to say
I’d never been on my own that way
just sat by myself all day

I was so lost back then
but with a little help from my friends
I found the light in the tunnel at the end

now you’re calling me up on the phone
so you can have a little whine and
a moan it’s only because you’re feeling alone

at first when I see you cry
yeah it makes me smile
yeah it makes me smile
at worst I feel bad for a while
but then I just smile
I go ahead and smile

whenever you see me
you say that you want me back
and I tell you it don’t mean jack
no it dont mean jack

I couldn’t stop laughing
no I just couldn’t help myself
see you messed up my mental health
I was quite unwell

I was so lost back then
but with a little help from my friends
I found the light in the tunnel at the end

now you’re calling me up on the phone
just to have a little whine and
a moan it’s only because you’re feeling alone

at first when I see you cry
yeah it makes me smile
yeah it makes me smile
at worst I feel bad for a while
but then I just smile
I go ahead and smile

lalala (x26)

at first when I see you cry
yeah it makes me smile
yeah it makes me smile
at worst I feel bad for a while
but then I just smile
I go ahead and smile

lalala (x7)

at first when I see you cry
it makes me smile
yeah it makes me smile
at worst I feel bad for a while
but then I just smile
I go ahead and smile

Fairytale Gone Bad
Music: Samu Haber, Jukka Backlund

This is the end you know
Lady, the plans we had went all wrong
We ain’t nothing but fight and shout and tears

We got to a point I can’t stand
I’ve had it to the limit; I can’t be your man
I ain’t more than a minute away from walking

We can’t cry the pain away
We can’t find a need to stay
I slowly realized there’s nothing on our side

Out of my life, Out of my mind
Out of the tears that we can’t deny
We need to swallow all our pride
And leave this mess behind
Out of my head, Out of my bed
Out of the dreams we had, they’re bad
Tell them it’s me who made you sad
Tell them the fairytale gone bad

Another night and I bleed
They all make mistakes and so did we
But we did something we can never turn back right

Find a new one to fool
Leave and don’t look back. I won’t follow
We have nothing left. It’s the end of our time

We can’t cry the pain away
We can’t find a need to stay
There’s no more rabbits in my hat to make things right

Out of my life, Out of my mind
Out of the tears we can’t deny
We need to swallow all our pride
And leave the mess behind
Out of my head, Out of my bed
Out of the dreams we had, they’re bad
Tell them it’s me who made you sad
Tell them the fairytale gone bad

ps.(of course the singer is a guy but you change the gender state to fit why I felt it was my song)

It occured to me months ago I guess I’m going to be a spinster. Yep, an old maid.  Spinster is the the female bachelor.  So you ask me what made me think I’m going to be one of them?

I do not know.  I just felt like Im going to be one.  Actually i’ve already have accepted the fact about it.  Maybe that is my calling, im not sure, but i can feel it.  Hehe, so you feel pity for me now, do you?  Or for the guys out there, now you feel indifferent towards me?

Anyway, I think it is a choice.  After trying to think and open the idea of bieng involved with someone else again, and listen to friends advice that i should go out and be dating again, and so i tried to be a person desireable for men that they can date me. So i tried to groom my self well and be at least a lady girly girl.  Try to act dumb and be humble so they won’t get scared.  I go out with some girl friends for night outs, 7 months and nada.  My market has been slow, no customer! I did not expect this would be this difficult when you get older (and wiser)!  So after this situation, i grew tired.  Its like going home feeling frustrated every time.  Maybe I am not too good for the opposite sex.  I do not want to sell my self short either.

And so i grew tired of feeling that way, so i told myself to just enjoy life and so be it.  Im ok that id be in a home for the aged someday.  Well i beg to disagree that getting married either will ensure happiness.  Id feel more pity to people who are married but not happy and not bieng honest about it.  So i accepted that i’d rather be single and honestly be true to what i feel.

again, I just learned when I stopped bieng intrested with guys, I realized that i feel i do not see anyone interesting for me.  And at times i feel like giving myself a chance again, i havent recognized that there were actually number of interesting guys at work, and around.  But then even how confident i am or i try to be, at the end i feel like im trying to hard.  Ill end up like one of the desperate housewives.  Oh well, so be it Ill be content, enjoy life as it is, so stop bugging me when i’m gona get married coz you’ll get the same answer the time you asked me months ago.  How would a person get married if she doesn’t have a groom to be?  Would you blame me if im going to be a spinster to be? :p

I now announce you..??? married to yourself!

the father of my dad
the only child
He do not know how to speak Tagalog
He speaks only but Ilocano, English, and spanish
He loves gardening, he grew papaya, corn, camote, and sayote in our backyard
He loves pets
I can remember him chasing little boys who slingshots the house birds when i was kid
He have a lot of dogs
He stays with us together with his wife, Lola taleng
He brings and fetch us to school when we were in Elementary
Comes back to our school during lunchtime just to bring our hot lunch
I do not know why we siblings/cousins when we were in our elementary days feel so embarassed if he hangs around the school grounds, I regret that
He was a professor, He was sent by American Soldiers to study in US to teach his fellowmen after world war 2
He teaches Spanish, he let me help him correct their Spanish exam papers when I was a kid
He loves reading
If he ran out of books at home to read he walks to the University Library to read or to the public market to the News Stand to read every news paper available
He is the most happy member of the family when someone receives an award
He always tells his grandchildren to finish studies first before getting married
He loves pinapaitan and dinuguan, we still cook that for him on his special days
He loves Mission Impossible TV series that sometimes we often cheat him that the channel is not available, i do not understand why we did that when we were kids
And so with RPN 9 News since its the only english News in broadcast
He has his favorite jeans that he doesnt want to change
He has his favorite transistor radio that he listens to until he falls asleep
He always tells us grandchildren the importance of education
He never miss the harvest of his mango farm every summer
i can remember when he was getting old fast he would still bring his plate to the sink with all his effort and you can hear the cuttlery clinking on his plate because of his shaking hands, he would insist.
He caught TB, he was old, he was diagnosed to have prostate cancer
My 14th bday he wasn’t there to celebrate with us he was at the Hospital

Im writing this in memory of my grandfather, Lolo Teng who was alive 12 years ago of this 3rd day of September.

the family sure do miss him so much, but I know he left us good legacy in life.